~kerja...kerja...~

hmm..dah lame xblogging ni... Lately aku bz sgt ngan hal2 duniawi ni.. Bz fill in service agreement ngan satyam... bz cari umah sewa... bz buat clearence nk konvo...sume mende ni begitu menuntut mase aku yg x begitu reti bab2 membahagi masa ni. huhuh neway, zillion thanks to all my frens yg sanggup susah payah sekali menyebukkan diri demi aku.huhuhu

So, esok hari last aku merempat kat uia tercinta. Tp last for dis tiring moment la. I'll be back. Tp xtau la bile. Memikirkan 23july ni aku start keje, aku jd cuak...takut...teruja.. hehehe but luckily i hv reha, azeze n jatt together wit me at satyam. Hilang skit takut tuh..tp ntah la. xtau camne working environment kt sane tuh. Silap2 dpt g India. best nye!!

So far, member2 yg baru grad ari tuh, sumer dh dapat keje. Ade gak tolak byk offer. hmmm...like ape Bro hamwira ckp time aku borak2 kosong ngan die.. " I heard rumors..pasal ict graduate pyh nk survive out there. Payah nk cr keje. Tp I heard, ur batch sume dh dpt keje kan. So now, im confuse. All those unemployed tu from University or Kolej? " Hmm... tu mmg issue yg sering di bahaskan. Kat kampung aku, penah isu ni penah jd topic utama. Dorg ckp.."Buat ape anta anak g U, kuar belom tentu dpt keje." Aku terkesima. Mereka ni seolah2 dh kalah sebelum berjuang.

So, from my humble opinion, ni sumer rezeki masing2. Time belaja, kite belaja...Time keje, kite keje.Buat ape susah2 pk kan sumthing negatif yg kite sendri xtau penghujungnya? Kite cume merancang...usaha... tepuk dada ty selera. Jadi, aku amat berharap dpt mengubah pemikiran org2 'lama' kg aku yg agak tertutup tu. huhuhu.. neway, wish me lak... i really need luck rite now. heheheh

musim buah yg best

Im bored. Dats the main reason why im sitting here, updating my blog. huhuhu holidays are nice. in fact, some people wish they hv absolute holiday for their entire life! And some are different. they work...and work...and work...until die. Opss...im not pointing anybody! For me, both are nice. Holiday...and work...bcoz i need both. And the nicest moment for me is when 'orang kampung' like me can enjoy the the 'musim buah'...In dis season, i believe most of 'orang bandar' wish to be at kampung...ye ke?? hehehe my family has our own dusun...and our own pokok getah...petai..durian...rambutan...dokong...betik...etc.. And thanks to my mom.. It's all her effort! While my father is bz with his outstation work...my mother with her kebun...my younger sister with her practical training...Im enjoying myself alone, eating those buah!! hehehe jgn jeles...I can even bersila under the rambutan tree and plug the fruits while reading magazine. hihihi Lebat buah sampai ke tanah. =) Nyum..nyum..nyum... And yesterday was a very unforgetable moment for me. My mom and I sat alone under the rambutan's tree....eating the fruits and chatting...We talked so many things... She told me so many things...And we laugh together... =) I'll never forget her laugh...her smile...her eyes...everything! It's nice to be me...It's nice to be my mom's daughter....It's nice to be org kampung...

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I've got my final result. it's not so good, but i guess i'll still get 1star (*) during konvo. hehehe =) hmm..ICT konvo day will be held on 26/8/07. It's on sunday. Neway, I rily rily hope dat all my frens will be there..and dun forget to bring some gifts...or flowers...but pls dun juz bring ur self and say: "Ana, aku bawa kasih sayang je utk ko...." huhuhu...

~Fear of nothing~

I feared being alone
Until I learned to like Myself

I feared failure
Until I realized that I only Fail when I don't try .

I feared success
Until I realized That I had to try In order to be happy With myself.

I feared people's opinions
Until I learned that People would have opinions About me anyway.

I feared rejection
Until I learned to Have faith in myself.

I feared pain
Until I learned that it's necessary For growth.

I feared the truth
Until I saw the Ugliness in lies.

I feared life
Until I experienced Its beauty .

I feared death
Until I realized that it's Not an end, but a beginning .

I feared my destiny
Until I realized that I had the power to change My life.

I feared hate
Until I saw that it Was nothing more than Ignorance.

I feared love
Until it touched my heart, Making the darkness fade Into endless sunny days.

I feared ridicule
Until I learned how To laugh at myself.

I feared growing old
Until I realized that I gained wisdom every day.

I feared the future
Until I realized that Life just kept getting Better.

I feared the past
Until I realized that It could no longer hurt me .

I feared the dark
Until I saw the beauty Of the starlight.

I feared the light
Until I learned that the Truth would give me Strength.

I feared change
Until I saw that Even the most beautiful butterfly Had to undergo a metamorphos is Before it could fly .

~So, my fear dissapeared~